Everyone I know from Sylva, my hometown, has been updating their facebook statues to this new song thats out, "If I die young."
I know it's suppose to be about the Lady of Shallot but some of the lyrics just really stabbed me in the heart like, "The sharp knife of a short life" really just bummed me out and I ended up sobbing for at least an hour after hearing this song. I started thinking about losing her. Losing Jaelyn. Not being a godmother anymore.
But alas, each day is getting some what easier to deal with. I am by no means over Shandy, its just...the thought of her not suffering anymore is pleasant. And I feel as if I'm being selfish wanting her to be here with me right now.
I'm just hoping I don't forget the sound of her voice, her laughter, her everything...