So, suffice to say, I'm feeling a little better. Its strange to think that in a way I haven't really thought of her this past week. When I did there was this little wave of electricity that went through out my body. Just reminding me that I can feel it, reminding me that I still have a life to live and to live it.
I've been planning the wedding more in depth lately as well, so my mind has been in a completely different place. She was one of my bridesmaids and if I didn't have a sister she would've been one of my top choices to be the my maid of honor. It'll be weird taking that huge life step without her being there to witness it.
And theres people out there that believe that the dead can see us in the afterlife, many people have told me that to make me feel better, but that doesn't comfort me at all because I know it isn't the truth. She'll just have to wait for all the details when its my turn to find nirvana.
I don't know. I'm sick and in a weird sick mood. Blah.